Summer!

The weather is warming up alot. M decided to up his gardening game and now the balcony is so full of his projects- sunflowers, lavenders, random flowers and strawberries!

E really enjoys helping out, especially watering and harvesting his strawberries- maybe 2 every 3 days. 😂 they taste not too bad actually! It's also nice to sit outside and read. We went to the lake today and it was crazy crowded - all the half naked people getting a tan. And the BBQ-ing... I told M it reminded me of ECP on weekends.

It was quite fun until E announced he needed to pee. 😖😱 There's hardly a toilet around. So we made him wear a pull-up we brought in the bag and told him to pee in it. Earlier in the week, he horrified me by telling me that he had to pee halfway during his walk (school hours) and his teacher brought him to a grass patch to do it. Right after he said this, another parent from the school sent me a text and said her daughter reported that "E shee-shee at the tree today". I could die of embarrassment! M laughed and laughed. 😫

Tried my hand at bread again, made the paparoti buns! The coffee taste wasn't strong enough but the texture of the bread was a success. I think i got the hang of kneading! At the expense of being woken up from muscle pains in the kneading arm that night! 😜 I'm keen to try another bread recipe this week again.

More updates

With E in school the last 2 weeks, it's been more peaceful and quiet at home. I feel more eager to teach him in the afternoons too. He's been quite good too, to his credit. He shocked me several times this week by cleaning up his room when i told him too. He's really growing up!

Anyways, after much consideration, we decided to bite the bullet and book tickets home for E and me. I'll have to endure 2 weeks of quarantine to get 5 weeks at home. I won't be able to do everything i want to do when i go back, plus there is an exam end of July, but it's ok. I know God has His reasons. I'm thankful.

M heads back to work tomorrow. I will miss his company at home. 😔

Updates... school starts tomorrow!!!

So goes the 8th week of lockdown... tomorrow is the first day at school!! Glad that E can go back for now, i really need a break. 😫 I'm a little worried there may be a surge but this season has really taught me that only God has it in control, worrying won't change anything. Still, i struggle with these flesh-ly things.

In the last 2 months, we managed to get him off diapers!! 😁 i am looking forward to announcing that to his school teacher tomorrow. Thanks be to God too, E did not give us a hard time.

The last few weeks being trapped at home with has made me burst many times (usually with E and when I have to teach him). I've gone through periods of feeling frustrated, angry, then completely wasted and guilt and sadness. There were a few ups but i was wondering how come i'm becoming more down than up. I don't understand myself especially when i cannot see enough reason to feel the way i do. However, i found some comfort when i read "The Common, Hard Things" from keepingheart blog. She talks of the story of Jesus being worried that the crowd that had been with Him for 3 days with nothing to eat would faint on the way home (Matthew 15). He, who fasted 40 days, was concerned for people who did not eat for 3 days. Jesus, who experienced our human weaknesses, did not expect us to be like Him. I felt comforted thinking about how He does not compare us to Him and He has compassion on our weaknesses.