Concluding remarks (for 2019)

Time really flies, it's almost 2020. M is having a long weekend so he only goes back to work on the 2nd of Jan. He has been asking me since last week if we should go to one of the ski places and take E tobogganing. I was not so keen since i've not done it before and i don't like crowded places. I had no real reason to say no otherwise. It was just me, introverted, lazy and liking stability (i.e. change-hater). Anyhow, i went without much hopes that i will be having fun. I was kinda telling myself that we should be able to leave after lunch since E needs to nap and all.

I was so wrong! We went to Mijoux, an hour's drive away. We found a slope where kids and adults were tobogganing and having fun. So we joined in with a cheap glider we got from the sports shop. It was fun! But only for one rider each time. The toboggans we had been looking at were expensive so we did not buy. However, M decided we should check the sports shop around Mijoux and we found it, for less than half the price of the ones we'd seen previously. So we got one and it was a good fun!! E is alot like me, it's hard to get him to try new activities. It took him awhile to enjoy tobogganing but i think he did in the end. 😅

As i looked back on all the shots today, and thought about what fun i'd missed if i hadn't agreed to go, it felt so familiar. I felt like this many times in 2019. It's been surreal. Moving to Geneva, finding a home here, getting our first car, travelling to places, staying at home to be a mom... 2019 was a year of many new experiences for M and i. Experiences which i would have not had if i were left alone to make them myself. On my own, i would have chosen to stay put. These experiences brought about alot of fear, anxiety and tears. However, they also inspired greater faith, prayer, bonding and many moments of joy and thankfulness.

We went to watch night service yesterday. Our pastor shared about "Certainties in an uncertain future". He likened life to driving a car. As the driver, we have to look forward to get to our destination. We cannot keep our eyes on the rear view mirror (i.e. live in the past- whether failures or glories). However, the rear view mirror is still important because in the rear view glance, we see 3 things. He used the story of Moses leading the Israelites through the desert, one of the stories that really resounded with many experiences i had in 2019. The rear view mirror glance showed:
1. DELIVERANCE (from the Egyptians), 2.GUIDANCE (through the desert), 3. NEVER A LACK (their clothes and shoes never wore out, they had manna and water).

Even though life holds uncertainties, my rear view mirror in the last 6 months showed me that God is always enough.