As i read the streams of messages coming in each morning, I can't help but feel i could be doing something more. Awhile back, M was also thinking the same thing and wishing he was back home and i could not comprehend why. Now i do. I feel the same way. I'm hiding at home while others fight the war. This feeling that i could be more useful elsewhere that's giving me existential crisis.
Yet, this break, seems to be God's grace and mercy to me. There are lessons i need to learn and He's slowly teaching me. There's a reason, a time and a season. I need to trust even when i cannot see... He's making this Martha be more Mary-like (Luke 10).
Stop the World (Matthew West)
The TV is talking
The telephone's ringing
The lights are all on and the radio's screaming
A million distractions are stealing my heart from You
I'm tired and empty
This life is relentless
It weakens my knees and it breaks my defenses
It's wearing me down and i'm desperate to hear from You
Stop the world, i wanna get out
I need an escape away from this crowd
Just to hear You speak to me
I need to be still before i make a move
And i need to be humble with nothing to prove
And i need Your word to show me the truth
I need time, precious time
Stop the world, i wanna get out
I need an escape away from this crowd
Just to hear You speak to me
Stop the world, I'm ready to listen
Show me a sign, give me a vision of Heaven
That i can hold on to...
We miss you and are praying for you all <3 Know that you are doing a great work of building and serving and loving and taking care of your family. Today I read:
ReplyDelete1 Cor 7:17 "Only let each person lead the life that the Lord has assigned to Him and to which God has called Him" (will share the rest with you via text!) Love you and jiayou!